"How Far We've Come" by Matchbox Twenty
This song reminds me of my pregnancy with Emerald, her birth, and nursing her in the months that followed.
I was unable to sleep most nights when I was pregnant because I was uncomfortable, too hot, couldn't find a position to sleep in that I was comfortable in... and, oh yeah--I was scared out of my mind. Of how I was going to get this child out of me, how I was going to be a terrible mother, about how I was going to raise this thing.
During those long sleepless nights of my pregnancy, this song aired every night, and it made me cry every time because I felt it was describing my veering off my selected life path of becoming a doctor, and it was heartbreaking to me.
During the c-section, the radio was playing and my little girl came into the world while it played in the background, and I finally felt I had accomplished something--it was speaking of the end of my pregnancy, the nine month journey.
Then, again during the long sleepless nights of staying awake to nurse every few hours, I thought about how the song was talking about my life in all the little events that led up to where I was, who I was becoming, and where I was going. And I liked what i saw...I was happy with it.
All in all, I haves spent a great deal of time thinking and reflecting on this song, and so it will stick out to me for a long time =)
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